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Fuel for Thought November 2004-07-01

Fuel for Thought November USS Nimitz • 2004-07-01 • ID 3649
Stardate:2406.10.06
(Shipping Trawler Archimedes - Bridge – CMO - Lt. [Dr.] BigWill Kinkaid - 
1157) 

After the brief and supportive conversation with Lt. Cmdr Gideon, Kinkaid 
still had his attention fixated on the viewscreen where Captain Sash and 
Commander Troi were relaying their ship’s status and updated situation 
reports.  Kinkaid was in a daze still when he heard the voice of Commander 
Troi calling his name.  "Doctor Kincaid."   She said. 

The mind set of Kinkaid return to normal reality when Troi called out his 
name for a second time.  "Doctor Kincaid,” Troi said in an authoritative 
way.  

Kinkaid responded as if he heard his name for the first time, "Aye, 
Ma'am."  Commander Troi, now had Kinkaid's attention, continued by giving 
him his instructions.  "You will make preparations to go back to the Nimitz 
now, as they need you worse than we do." Troi said. 

Kinkaid's medical first response frame of mind returned to full alert mode. 
"Aye, Commander, enroute to the transporter room."  With that said, Kinkaid 
was dismissed by Commander Troi as she returned her attention back to 
Captain Sash. 

(Reply anyone, if you want to.) 
(Posted by Nathan M. Williams) 

Stardate:2406.10.06
(USS Nimitz - Bridge - CO- Captain Devan Sash- 1158) 

=^=Anything else Captain?=^= 

"No," Sahs replied.  "Although, I will want you back here soon aswell.  Lt. 
Zzt thinks we may be able to move again tomorrow.  I will want to have a 
staff meeting tomorrow morning at 0900 hours.  I want a full status report 
from the Archimedes then.  I'll want to meet this Lt. commander Gideon 
before then aswell.  You can leave the ship in the hands of Major Dorkin 
during that time." 

(reply Troi) 

Sash realized he'd been on warrior mode had not relented even now.  How easy 
it was to fall back on old habits.  he was keeping everyone at adistance, 
including Kestra.  He could tell that his lack of response cut her. 

"Oh, and Kestra," he added, being a little informal, "I'm glad to see that 
you're alright.  You and your crew did a great job.  Sash out." 

The screen went blank and he smiled at the view of the trawler.  They had 
managed to get their goal.  But at such a price.  The smile disapeared as 
Sash took a moment of solice over the loss of his opponent.  How he hated 
war.  The bustle of ships businessbrought his back to the present. 

It was a certainty that he would follow that old Earth phrase, and remember 
the Alamo.  Sash got up and headed for the turbo lift.  He stopped by the 
counselor. 

"Mr Harrison," he said, "walk with me a while." 

(reply Harrison) 

"Ensign Kateb, you have the bridge.  I need to take a tour of the ship." 
With that he and Harrison stepped onto the turbo lift. 

(USS Nimitz - Turbo lift 1 - CO- Captain Devan Sash- 1205) 

"Main enigineering," the captain ordered the computer.  As the turbo lift 
began to move he turned to the counselor. 

"Ensign," he began,  "I want you to start preparing for the backlash of this 
battle.  I know that it's hard on the crew to fight and destroy one of our 
own.  I'd like you to set up a series of meetings with the crew and make 
sure that they are not over-burdened with guilt." 

(reply Harrison) 

"Thank you."  Sash hesitated for a moment.  Then thought better of what he 
was about to say.  The turbo lift came to a halt and the door opened.  Sash 
stepped half out and half in.  "By the way, i just want to say how impressed 
I was at your performance during this ordeal.  Good work Ensign." 

The door closed and Sash headed for engineering. 

(reply Troi, Harrison) 
(posted by Al Muir) 
Stardate:2406.10.06
(Shipping Trawler Archimedes – Transporter Room – Lt. [Dr.] BigWill Kinkaid 
- 1159) 

Kinkaid, with his medical kit he initially brought with him from the Nimitz 
at the start of the mission, made his way to the transporter pad. He turned 
upon stepping on the pad and looked at the young transporter technician. 
Kinkaid remember that it was not too long ago when he first stepped on to 
the USS Nimitz from the Academy on how young he was and scared to borderline 
nervousness to be sure. Kinkaid saw that same look in the technician when he 
said, "Crewman, I'm ready.  Energize."

The technician engaged to the transporter beam. Kinkaid grabbed hold of his 
medical kit as he faded into thin air for the Nimitz. 

(Reply anyone, if you want to.) 
(Posted by Nathan M. Williams) 
Stardate:2406.10.06
(Shipping Trawler Archimedes- Bridge - Commander Kestra Troi - 1200) 

=/\=No,=/\= Sash replied.  =/\=Although, I will want you back here soon as 
well.  Lt. Zzt thinks we may be able to move again tomorrow.  I will want to 
have a staff meeting tomorrow morning at 0900 hours.  I want a full status 
report from the Archimedes then.  I'll want to meet this Lt. commander 
Gideon before then aswell.  You can leave the ship in the hands of Major 
Dorkin during that time.=/\= 

"Aye Captain, 0900 hours tomorrow."  She replied, but, was taken back by his 
attitude that he was taking toward her.  She resisted the urge to read his 
mind to see what it was that he was fighting.  She knew that he, like 
everyone, was disappointe and hurt that the Alamo could not be saved.  She 
tried to hide the hurt that she felt at the loss and the way Sash was 
addressing her, for his sake.  "I will bring the Commander with me."  She 
looked over at Gideon to ensure that he was listening. 

=/\=Oh, and Kestra,=/\= Sash added which surprised her at the informal tone 
he took, though it did feel a bit forced.  It sounded like he thought that 
she needed the little gesture and for a moment she was a tad bit upset with 
him thinking that she could not handle the situation.  =/\=I'm glad to see 
that you're alright.  You and your crew did a great job.  Sash out.=/\= 

Sash had the connection cut before she had a chance to respond and that also 
upset her.  She vowed that she would have to discuss it with him later when 
they had a bit of time to themselves. 

(reply Gideon, any) 
(posted by Frank) 


Stardate:2406.10.06
(USS Nimitz - Bridge - TAC Ensign Kateb - 1205) 

Onyx was busy securing the ship and the crew, there was a tone to do and for now, even if security was a bit stretched, the work was being done.

"Ensign Kateb, you have the bridge.  I need to take a tour of the ship." Said Sash barely looking at her. 

“Yes Sir!”  Once he left, she took the seat and continued her work there. 

“Kateb to Griffin... is the civilian deck secured?  I didn't hear from you this pass 30 minutes.” 

=/\=I was going to Sir... the civilian deck is secured, proceeding to the other deck right now.=/\= 

“Good... Kateb out!” Satisfied, she return back to the reports coming in. 

(Reply from anyone) 
(Posted by Laurence) 

Stardate:2406.10.06
(Shipping Trawler Archimedes - Bridge - Commander Kestra Troi - 1206) 

Kestra had sat there looking at the view of the Nimitz with all the burnt 
marks on her from the battle she had just been through with the Alamo.  She 
was thinking of how the crew and Sash had come through the battle mentally. 
She figured that Sash would mourn the death of so many Starfleet personnel, 
just like her, in a battle that should never have happened. 

She shook herself back to the present as the orders from Sash came back to 
her.  "Lt. Saleke, I want all reports on a PADD for me to take to the Nimitz 
in the morning."  She said as she stood up and turned to him.  "You did a 
commentable job in your first assignment in a command situation, it will not 
go unnoticed." 
She said with a wink. 

"Commander Gideon, you will be accompanying me in the morning early to meet 
the captain before the meeting.  Your help in this unfortunate situation 
will also not go unnoticed.  I am going to ask Captain Sash to have a 
memorial for the crew of the Alamo and for any that we have lost."  She said 
to Gideon as she stepped up to him to place a hand on his shoulder to 
emphasize her feelings. 

"Lt. Saleke, ensure that Mr. Slytherwald is not having any problems 
gathering enough engineers to head to the Nimitz."  She said as she was 
walking to the ready room, stopping at the door to turn back to face the 
bridge. 

"Commander Gideon, you have the bridge."  she paused for a thought as she 
looked at everyone on the bridge, "I know that it was not a mission that we 
wanted to be on, but, you all did your jobs commandably."  she then turned 
and walked through the door. 

(reply from Saleke, Gideon, any) 
(Posted by Frank) 


Stardate:2406.10.06
(Shipping Trawler Archimedes - Bridge – Lt.Cmdr Edward Gideon - 1207)

As a redundant part Edward stood at the rear of the bridge, the doctor had been 
ordered to transfer over to the Nimitz a great sign of kindness from Kestra. 
Although he expected nothing else from his old friend, after the battle the crew 
had been understandably on edge. The communication from the Nimitz had served 
to remind everyone the price they had paid to complete their mission. 

The exterior of the ship was covered in burn marks and smashed holes in the hull 
of the ship. Every now and again it was possible to see the flicker of the containment 
force fields. Edward did not know the Nimitz well and did not know her crew, this lead 
him to be more sorrowful for the crew and friends he had lost at the Alamo. It would 
seem in his life there was not much else but death. He out lived most of his human 
friends and most other species as well. It had been accepted by his race that they 
would live in the end alone. 

The CO of the Nimitz Captain Sash had requested his presence on the ship before the 
staff meeting on the Nimitz. It was probably to figure out what to do with him. It was 
a position that Edward did not envy. He had come to the conclusion that he would proberly 
see the rest of this conflict from either a prison cell or some unimportant position. It was 
just a matter of preparing for that eventuality. 

Kestra gave her orders and then began walking towards the ready room; her words had 
been kind on the loss of the Alamo crew. However words was not going to reverse the 
unnecessary death of so many of his friends. The 52nd fleet was on the edge of the abyss; 
they had no option left but to fight back against the wall. This was going to lead to many 
more deaths before the end of this; the question was going to be how much of their soul 
would be left after so much killing? 

Kestra spoke once more as she closed on the ready room door, leaving him in charge 
of the bridge. Edward paused for a moment wondering if he had heard correctly, moving 
to the command chair he nodded and then stood over it not sitting. His body was still 
feeling numb over the loss of so many lives. However Kestra had charged him with a 
duty and he was going to live up to it. 

"Step down from red alert, find away to purge the transporter buffer of all those 
warheads. Besides that continue repairs people, concentrate of shields and sensors. If 
we can spot them we could hide for days in the asteroid field," Edward turned to look 
at the seat again and then lowered himself into it slowly. It was more comfortable then 
was to be expected, however it was seldom comfort to the numbness of his body and mind. 

(Reply Any) 
(Posted By Richard Bowes) 
Stardate:2406.10.06
(Shipping Trawler Archimedes - Bridge - Lt. Saleke - 1208)

Saleke noted the departure of Doctor Kincaid and its emotional aspects and shook his head, it would not be necessary to fulfill his appointment now, thanks to the penetrating questions of Lt. Commander Gideon the reason for his emotional imbalance appeared to have been rooted out. After a short conversation with Captain Sash Kestra turned to him and spoke.
 
 "Lt. Saleke, I want all reports on a PADD for me to take to the Nimitz in the morning.  You did a commendable job in your first assignment in a command situation, it will not
go unnoticed."
 
Saleke nodded and said. "Yes Commander, the report will be ready."
 
 She then winked then turned to Lt. Commander Gideon.

"Commander Gideon, you will be accompanying me in the morning early to meet
the captain before the meeting.  Your help in this unfortunate situation will also not go unnoticed.  I am going to ask Captain Sash to have a memorial for the crew of the Alamo and for any that we have lost."  She then stepped up to him and placed a hand on his shoulder.

"Lt. Saleke, ensure that Mr. Slytherwald is not having any problems gathering enough engineers to head to the Nimitz."  She stopped at the lift door to face the bridge.

"Commander Gideon, you have the bridge.I know that it was not a mission that we
wanted to be on, but, you all did your jobs commendably."  She then turned and walked through the door.
 
Commander Gideon sat down in the Captain's chair with a distant look on his face and spoke to the bridge. “Step down from red alert, find away to purge the transporter buffer of all those warheads. Besides that continue repairs people, concentrate of shields and sensors. If we can spot them we could hide for days in the asteroid field,”
 
Saleke spoke up. "The long range sensors are functional Commander however the lateral array is damaged and needs extensive repairs, I will detail a team to begin repairs immediately." He considered for a moment. "The anti-matter now stored in the pattern buffers is stored as energy and may therefore be dissipated... 'bled off  if you will' or it may be beamed back into space unless we find available space for it within the containment storage fields. I would recommend the latter if possible and the former if necessary." 
 
(Reply: Commander Edward Gideon)
 
"Very well Commander I will contact engineering." Saleke initiated the intercom to engineering. "Mr. O'Neill do we have room in the containment for the anti-matter in the containment fields?"
 
(Reply: Miles O'Neill) 

He listened closely to the engineer's answer. "Very well then Mr. O'Neill please shunt the energy in the buffers through the deflector dish at a drain rate of 3,000 megajoules/per minute, this will take approximately three minutes to drain the residual energy at a safe rate."
 
(Reply: Miles O'Neill)
 
"Thank you Mr. O'Neill. Saleke out." After making arrangements for the purging of the pattern buffers he left his station to make an on-sight observation of the damage to the lateral sensors. As he walked toward the turbolift he turned to tactical. "Mr. Slytherwald we appear to be out of danger at the moment, please carry out the Captain's orders immediately. If you have any problems with the Archimedes crew please report to me, I will be checking in with you every half hour."

(Reply: Ensign Slytherwald)
 
(Reply: Gideon, O'Neill, Slytherwald, any)
(Posted by Charles)
Stardate:2406.10.06
(USS Nimitz – Deck 6 - Transporter Room #2 – CMO - Lt. [Dr.] BigWill Kinkaid 
- 1209) 

The transporter chief received the message from the bridge that the Chief 
Medical Officer was returning back to the Nimitz from the trawler Archimedes 
and to have transporter room #2 ready to receive him. Despite the heavy 
charred room, the chief made the necessary adjustments and repairs to the 
power relays for the transporter buffers and was ready to energize. The 
chief moved his hand across his console, which activated the transporter 
beam. The beam was slowly losing power causing a brief instability in the 
pattern buffers.  The chief boosted the signal feed to compensate the power 
drain. The beam materialized a humanoid male in a Starfleet medical uniform. 

Kinkaid could sense his body finally coming together as the beam faded from 
the pad. Kinkaid stepped off the transporter pad and said, "Lt. BigWill 
Kinkaid request permission to come aboard."  A computerized voice recognized 
his voice and replied. 

[Permission granted, Welcome aboard Doctor Kinkaid.] 

Kinkaid looked around and he could see that the interior was far worst than 
the outer hull of the ship.  He went to the transporter chief, who was 
coughing slightly wearing a charred uniform as if he been fighting plasma 
fires for most of the day and said, "Are you all right you seem to be 
congested?"  The chief tried to respond, but started to cough heavily and to 
catch his breathe at the same time.  Kinkaid opened his medical kit and 
retrieved a hypospray. He placed the hypospray against the chief's neck and 
adminstered a quick dose.  The first-aid was what the chief needed. 

Kinkaid had a relieved expression on his face as he continued to visually 
scan the room. The good doctor was about to exit, but turned around for a 
brief moment and said, "Chief, if your coughing returns, I need you to 
report to Sickbay for further treatment for smoke inhalation."  The chief 
looked at Kinkaid and knodded in agreement. Kinkaid then proceed out of the 
transporter room. 

The transporter chief returned to his console and tapped to communication 
pad. 

=^= Transporter Room #2 to Bridge. Doctor Kinkaid has successfully return to 
the Nimitz. =^= 

(Reply Capt. Sash, anyone on the bridge) 

(Posted by Nathan M. Williams) 


Stardate:2406.10.06
(Shipping Trawler Archimedes - Main Engineering - Ensign Miles O'Neill - 1210)
 
=/\=Mr. O'Neill do we have room in the containment for the anti-matter in the containment fields?=/\=
 
"I'm sorry sir, I don't we think we do. We're at 75% capactity for the M/AM reactor. We can dump all of it in space, and hope it doesn't spread out too much." Miles said as he checked his console.
 
=/\=Very well then Mr. O'Neill please shunt the energy in the buffers through the deflector dish at a drain rate of 3,000 megajoules/per minute, this will take approximately three minutes to drain the residual energy at a safe rate.=/\=
 
"It'll take some time to recalibrate the patten buffer to eject the anti-matter, but the whole process won't take more than 5 minutes. I'm starting it now." Miles said as he tapped a few commands on the console.
 
=/\=Thank you Mr. O'Neill. Saleke out.=/\=
 
Miles quickly tapped more commands and, seeing that the buffer was correctly calibrated, tapped his commbadge and said, "O'Neill to Bridge. I'm ejecting the anit-matter now."
 
(Reply any on the Bridge, iyw)
(Posted by Matt Kirk)

Stardate:2406.10.06
(Shipping Trawler Archimedes - Bridge - Lt.Cmdr Edward Gideon - 1211)

The Officer from the Nimitz began to give his report on the status of the sensor array. So far the Vulcan had proved to be a very interesting character, the debate they had held on the bridge of the trawler had been most interested if a bit heated. In a way the Vulcan had earned a lot of kudos in Edward’s book, his professionalism was second to none. 

"The long range sensors are functional Commander however the lateral array is damaged and needs extensive repairs, I will detail a team to begin repairs immediately." He considered for a moment. "The anti-matter now stored in the pattern buffers is stored as energy and may therefore be dissipated... 'Bled off if you will' or it may be beamed back into space unless we find available space for it within the containment storage fields. I would recommend the latter if possible and the former if necessary." 

"Lieutenant do what ever you deem necessary I shall leave it in your capable hands," Edward stated knowing the Lieutenant would function fine with out him standing over his shoulder. Saleke continued with his work and began ordering the engineering department to sort out the transporter issue. With the damage to the Nimitz the transporters were going to be very useful.

Grinning to himself Edward sat in the chair for a moment forgetting all about the problems of the Alamo and the trawler. For the meantime he had one goal and one purpose, it was refreshing to have one goal. The third officer of the Nimitz continued to order the crew leaving Edward with little to do but attempt to look intelligent. The goal was not really achieved, as Saleke and Slytherwald moved off the bridge in attempt to make the trawlers crew work the com link activated. 

=^= O'Neill to Bridge. I'm ejecting the anti-matter now. =^= Edward looked to the armrest and pressed the com button. 

"Gideon here chief, go right ahead we will monitor it from here as well. Just try not to blow up the ship chief I want the commander to have a ship to command."

(Reply O’Neill) 

"Operations keep a eye on the antimatter I don’t really want any part of us or the Nimitz to explode."  The operations officer that had replaced the doctor nodded and began to operate the consol. As the antimatter transport occurred Edward lent forward expecting the possible worse case scenario. Sitting expectantly the antimatter just simply transported out into space and was absorbed with out incident. Clapping his hands he spoke once more down the com. 

"Good work Chief O’Neill, you’ve done a damn fine job again. If you are available I could do with some more bridge officers to do repairs. There is no point having the trawler if all the consoles are smashed."

(Reply O’Neill) 

(Reply O’Neill, any) 
(Posted By Richard) 
Stardate:2406.10.06
(Shipping Trawler Archimedes - Main Engineering - Ensign Miles O'Neill - 1212)
 
=/\=Gideon here chief, go right ahead we will monitor it from here as well. Just try not to blow up the ship chief I want the commander to have a ship to command,=/\=
 
"I'm sure I'll keep both ships in one piece, however if I don't, please don't sue me, sir." Miles said with a little humor in his voice. He monitored his console during the operation to see if everything went right, which Miles prayed it did. After the three minutes, he breathed a sigh of relief, when his commbadge beeped again, 
 
=/\=Good work Chief O’Neill, you’ve done a damn fine job again. If you are available I could do with some more bridge officers to do repairs. There is no point having the trawler if all the consoles are smashed,=/\=
 
"Thanks, sir. I'll be up there as fast as I can." Miles said as he got an engineer to watch his station, picked up his ever-useful bag o' tools, and rode the turbolift to the bridge. As he steped out, he said to Lt. Commander Gideon, "Which station would you like me to work on first, sir?"
 
(Reply Gideon, any)
(Posted by Matt Kirk)

Stardate:2406.10.06
(Shipping Trawler Archimedes – Main Engineering – Ensign Miles O'Neill - 1214)
 
"Chief O’Neill, please take your pick. The science, engineering, tactical, helm, mission ops and about everything else needs a engineer's hand to it so feel free to start work on which ever item takes your fancy,"
 
"I'll go with Helm first." Miles said while moving towards the helm station. When he reached there, he opened the hatch, pulled out his tricoder, hydrospanner, and other tools, and got to work.
 
“Need a hand?”
 
"Miles looked up to Gideon, and said, "You know how to work these things?"
 
“Lets say I have been around and picked up some engineering knowledge,”
 
"I can use all the help I can get, there's some spare tools in the bag."
 
“So Miles tell me something about yourself,”
 
"Well, I hail from San Francisco, near Starfleet Academy. I had a girlfriend when I was 16, Amy Carter. I had to end that when I entered the Academy. My parents were both in Starfleet, so my family is no stranger there. Hold on..." Miles said. He had to fix a circut that decided to start malfunctioning. After he fixed it, he said to Gideon, "What else would you like to know?"
 
(Reply Gideon, any)
(Posted by Matt Kirk)
Stardate:2406.10.06
(Shipping Trawler Archimedes – Bridge – Lt.Cmdr Edward Gideon - 1215)

Edward grinned; he could tell he was going to get this a lot. Humans as a whole were not really open to discussing everything about themselves. As a whole they were a quite secretive species, they claimed to be open and would discuss anything but when it came to it they didn’t know how just to talk. Most humans and other species guarded their lives and treated probing questions with suspicion. Ed paused for a moment the question what else would you like to know was an interesting one; it had a large scope for responses. 

"What ever you find interesting about yourself. Maybe I should explain my race has a very long life and a genetic memory. When one of us dies our memories pass to our children so over time we acclimate a vast array of knowledge and people. To make life easier for the next generation I ask a lot of questions so a better profile of people can be created. It makes life easier for my people and me in the long run. Plus it’s interesting to get to know people."

(Reply O’Neill) 

"Personally I have been alive for a while shall we say, I shall not live much longer" Edward immediately attempted to change the subject. The official line on his age would be 290 however that was the official line. Sooner or later he knew his time would come and he would pass on it was his duty to ensure the knowledge passed on further than him. "So chief why engineering?"  

(Reply O’Neill, ANY) 
(Posted By Richard) 

Stardate:2406.10.06
(Shipping Trawler Archimedes – Bridge – Lt.Cmdr Edward Gideon - 1215)

Edward resisted the temptation to rotate around in the captain’s chair, it was an evil temptation. The fact that the seat could rotate a full three hundred and sixty degrees meant that it was a temptation that was constantly there. Edward did not have much to do but sit and stare out the view screen, or more precisely what was left of the view screen. The battle damage the Archimedes had received had produced burn marks up the right hand side of the view screen and a majority of the consoles had either been blown out or were fluxuating with the power that was being produced. The voice that came from behind his seat allowed his finally to use the chairs power. Rotating around he looked at the officer in the back of the bridge. 

"Which station would you like me to work on first, sir?" Edward paused for a moment he wasn’t aware if he had actually met this officer before. The voice was very familiar though probability was it was the chief of engineering. 

"Chief O'Neill, please take your pick. The science, engineering, tactical, helm, mission ops and about everything else needs a engineers hand to it so feel free to start work on which ever item takes your fancy."

(Reply O’Neill) 

Edward paused to look around there was little or no officers on the bridge and nothing really to do. Moving over to where the engineer had gone Edward looked down at him and then spoke. 

"Need a hand?"

(Reply O’Neill) 

"Lets say I have been around and picked up some engineering knowledge."

(Reply O’Neill) 

Lowering himself under the consol Ed popped the lid off the consol and looked at the array of wiring located beneath it. ~All ways looks more complicated than it is! ~ Ed thought to himself. 

"So Miles tell me something about yourself."

(Reply O’Neill, any) 
(Posted BY Richard) 
Stardate:2406.10.06
(USS Nimitz – Sickbay – Dr. Michaella Kirien - 1216) 

Michaella looked up as Kinkaid strode into his sickbay. It made her 
feel a bit unwanted, and a tad bit unloved, but most of that was her 
own damn insecurities, not anything that Kinkaid had done. 

"Kinkaid?"  She said, motioning him over. "John Wilson was one of the 
first to fall,"  And her emotional calm from outside her reasserted 
itself. "And Ops is requesting an autopsy as to why. I'm not going to 
be doing it."  SHe declared, "And all the other doctors don't have the 
experience."  She looked around sickbay, then picked up her padd, 
handing it over. "These are the most critical cases, although we've 
been treating burns and cuts and scrapes and broken bones as well as 
other minor injuries since the battle began ..."  SHe looked up as two 
more crew limped in with obviously broken bones. One of the nurses went 
over to treat them. 

Michaella took a deep breath. She strove for calm that she certainly 
wasn't finding at this point in time.   She wondered where it went 
briefly, something was very wrong. "I...  I keep having moments of 
vulcanish calm and logic, but then they dissolve into states of intense 
emotion.  As a Counsellor, I wonder if I am coming down with a case of 
split personalities."  She found it hard to admit that. "When the 
Counsellor is released, I will want to talk with him."  Her voice took 
on the coolish air of a Vulcan yet again. "I fear that some of it is 
the loss of the bond with my Imzadi. Tell me, Doctor, do you know of a 
telepath on board who can help with that ?" 

(reply Kinkaid, any) 
(posted by melinda :-) 


Stardate:2406.10.06
(USS Nimitz – Deck 10 – Enroute to Sickbay – Lt. [Dr.] BigWill Kinkaid – 
1217) 

As the tubrolift doors opened with some hesitation, Kinkaid noticed the 
maintenance teams were working at a diligent pace to fix the damaged 
corridor panels that appeared to have been blasted out from an exploding 
conduit or power relay junction. As Kinkaid continued his movement towards 
his office and to Sickbay, the scene on Deck 10 was like a war zone gone 
wrong with the deck being decimated with large charred, in some instance 
still smoldering, panel sections littering the area leading up to the 
medical section. 

(Reply None) 

(USS Nimitz – Sickbay – Lt. [Dr.] BigWill Kinkaid – 1220) 

As the sickbay doors slid open and then close right behind him, Kinkaid 
could see that the medical personnel were pretty busy with the injured. 
Kinkaid made his way to his office, where Dr. Michaelle Kirien was going 
over PADD medical reports.  Kinkaid gestured to make his presence noticed. 
Kirien looked up and said, “Kinkaid?”  He seemed to be amazed by the 
surprising expression Kirien was giving him. Kinkaid set his medical kit on 
the desk while explaining somewhat his presence on the ship. 

“Well, I see we have quite a full house here which is why Captain Sash has 
requested my presence back on the Nimitz since the medical needs on the 
trawler were limited.”   Kirien then motioned at him to look at a PADD, 
which had several names of the crewmen who were deceased as the result of 
injuries sustained from the battle.  Kinkaid scanned the list and one name 
caught his attention, Lt. Commander John Wilson. 

Kinkaid was in disbelief, but saw that Kirien was starting to become 
emotional when she said, “John Wilson was one of the first to fall.”   
Kinkaid reached over to comfort her.  He knew that this was the hardest 
thing anyone could go through especially ones with children.  Kirien 
continued, “And Ops is requesting an autopsy as to why.  I’m not going to be 
doing it.”  Kinkaid felt the need to advised Kirien that regardless of her 
feelings past or present for Lt. Cmdr Wilson; how painful it may be, she had 
a duty as doctor to her patients; alive or decease to found a cure or the 
cause of death to have better knowledge for the future of the medical 
profession.  Kinkaid listened on to Kirien. “And all the other doctors don’t 
have the experience.” 

Kirien handed Kinkaid another PADD as she continued her conversation and 
look into sickbay. “These are the most critical cases, although we’ve been 
treating burns and cuts and scrapes and broken bones as well as other minor 
injuries since the battle began…” 

As she paused, Kinkaid saw two more crewmen limping into sickbay with the 
obvious sign of having broken bones. 

(Reply ACMO, Dr. Kirien) 

(Posted by Nathan M. Williams) 


Stardate:2406.10.06
(USS Nimitz - Counsellor's Office - COUNS - Ensign 
John Harrison - 1218) 

Harrison entered his office, confused as to whether or 
not he was meant to be back on the Bridge. He figured 
that Captain Sash had implied that he ought to start 
his proper duties now. Besides, the counsellor 
reasoned, that they wouldn't need anyone monitoring 
space dust at the moment! 

He sat down at his desk and leant back in his chair. 
Letting out a long sigh, he closed his eyes and 
thought for a while. In his mind he saw John Wilson's 
body, the explosions on the bridge as the Nimitz had 
jerked forward, the Alamo's destruction. 

What was he doing here? He wasn't a soldier, he was a 
counsellor. He had joined starfleet in the hopes of 
meeting strange new races and helping people. His 
father had brought him up with a strong sense of 
sadness when a life was lost. And yet, he had just sat 
through a battle and watched...yes, that was all he 
had done, watched...watched as crewmates died around 
him and fellow Starfleet officers had been killed. 
Perhaps murdered? All for some anti-matter? It wasn't 
right. 

Then again, he reasoned, he wasn't entirely sure what 
was going on. Those on the Alamo may have deserved 
death and... no, he didn't believe that. No one 
deserved death. 

His sense of honour sank in. He had sworn an oath to 
obey his commanding officer. Captain Sash certainly 
didn't seem like a murderer - Captain Le Bleu had. 
This loss of life was a problem with war. Yes. That 
was what Harrison had landed himself in. This was a 
war. 

Doubtless the crew felt the same as he did. Probably 
worse, having been together for so long. He was still 
the 'newboy' of the Nimitz. Well, he had a job to do. 
Time to do it. 

The reflection time had let out a lot of his pent-up 
emotions, and enabled him to concentrate on 
prioritising the list of the senior staff for 
counselling. As he had planned all along, Dr Kirien 
was at the top of the list, and he had placed Captain 
Sash at the bottom. When he came to report how the 
crew were feeling, he would offer to talk to the 
Captain to see how he was doing. The destruction of 
the Alamo had visibly taken a toll on his commanding 
officer - he had not enjoyed taking a fellow captain's 
life, or the life of his crew. 

He jotted a few notes down on a PADD among his list, 
slipped the PADD into his pocket and stood. First he 
would go and seek out Dr Kirien. 

As he walked to the turbolift, he felt a slight 
awkwardness about what he was about to do. He had no 
idea how she would react when he offered to talk to 
her about the loss of her...what was the term?... 
Imzadi. She would no doubt be beyond distraught. She 
might even be busy working, hoping to take her mind 
off it, so he would only be getting in the way of the 
running of Sickbay. 

Still, this awkwardness was part of a counsellor's 
job! 

(reply none) 
(posted by James Batchelor) 


Stardate:2406.10.06
(USS Nimitz – Turbolift – COUNS - Ensign John Harrison 
- 1214) 

=^= Kinkaid to Counsellor Harrison. Can you spare a 
moment or two of your time. I have a patient here in 
Sickbay who needs to see you. =^= 

The counsellor tapped his own comm badge and replied. 

=/\= Certainly, doctor,=/\= he said, =/\=I'm actually 
on my way down to you now. Who is the patient?=/\= 

He knew what the answer would be. 

(reply Kincaid) 

=/\=Understood,=/\= he said, =/\=I'll be with you in a 
few moments.=/\= 

He waited patiently in the turbolift, trying to plan 
what he was going to say. The turbolift stopped and he 
stepped out. Within a few moments he was at the doors 
of sickbay. 

~Okay, John~ he told himself ~THIS is why you're in 
Starfleet~ 

He stepped forward, the doors slid open and he saw 
Doctor Kincaid standing next to a visibly stressed Dr 
Kirien. 

"Doctor Kirien," he greeted politely, "You wished to 
speak to me? How can I help?" 

Both he and Kirien knew what they were to speak of, 
but he had to ease the conversation in formally. 

(reply Kirien) 

"Okay," he said, his voice calm, emotionless, "Would 
you prefer to talk somewhere more private?" 

(reply Kirien) 
(posted by James Batchelor) 


Stardate:2406.10.06
(USS Nimitz – Sickbay – CMO - Lt. [Dr.] BigWill Kinkaid - 1221) 

After seeing the two crewmen with possibly broken bones being assisted by 
one of the nurses enter sickbay, Kinkaid had a strange feeling as if a 
foresight was coming to him on what Kirien was going to say next due to her 
sudden shift in personality which was starting to become obvious as if she 
have something on her mind. 

Kirien started to finished her thought from before, but said, "I...  I keep 
having moments of vulcanish calm and logic, but then they dissolve into 
states of intense emotion.  As a Counsellor, I wonder if I am coming down 
with a case of split personalities." 

Kinkaid was wondering if Kirien "vulcanish" condition was the result of Lt. 
Saleke having another one of his episodes on the trawler Archimedes in which 
Saleke maybe trying to calm and control the "emotional rift" through 
telepathic means to whoever is having a crisis like for the moment Kirien. 

Kinkaid pondered the notion for a moment as Kirien continued. "When the 
Counsellor is released, I will want to talk with him."  Kirien started to 
take on, for the second time while in his presence, 'the coolish air of a 
Vulcan'. "I fear that some of it is the loss of the bond with my Imzadi. 
Tell me, Doctor, do you know of a telepath on board who can help with that 
?" 

Kinkaid sat down at his desk and accessed the crews medical logs from his 
database to assist Kirien in her need of help. The filtering of the logs 
came up with a few possible names to the query inputted. Commander Kestra 
Troi; the ship's schoolteacher - Katie Troi; and Kirien's children: 
Gabriella and Elizabeth.  Kinkaid recited the names to Kirien. 

(Reply ACMO, Dr. Kirien) 

Then Kinkaid said, "I know this may be a stretch but Lt. Saleke name also 
came up. He may be able to help you through the miracles of the Vulcan meld 
with the Captain's permission and your williness, of course. It's a risky 
procedure, but it may explain a lot and probably contain the strain you are 
going through. But first, let's see if Counsellor Harrison can spare a 
moment or two to see you." 

(Reply ACMO, Kirien, anyone) 

Kinkaid tapped his comm pad on his desk. 

=^= Kinkaid to Counsellor Harrison. Can you spare a moment or two of your 
time. I have a patient here in Sickbay who needs to see you. =^= 

(Reply Harrison, Kirien, anyone) 
(Posted by Nathan M. Williams) 

Stardate:2406.10.06
(USS Nimitz, Sickbay, Lt. Cithy Dumas and Captain Devan Sash, 2000) 

Cithy woke up from a nightmare of the replay of Galk throwing the knife 
and it hitting her, over and over again.  She had felt the touch at some 
point of a telepath, who soothed away the nightmares for a moment, but 
when the touch left, the nightmares came back. 

"Is she awake, Dr. Kirien?"  A masculine voice asked.  The feminine, 
and Cithy recognized it as the telepath who soothed the nightmares, 
spoke an affirmative. "The poison used on her was quite common, but 
very virulent, she's likely to be a bit disoriented."  The feminine 
voice spoke, keeping a light touch on her thoughts. 

Cithy opened her eyes, using her antennas to sniff the air.  "Who are 
you?"  Cithy managed to croak out, her eyes focusing on the female, who 
had to be a Betazoid.  Why that mattered right now, Kai didn't know, 
but it did. 

"You call yourself Kai?"  Michaella asked, her eyebrows rising. "It is 
a lovely name and nothing to be ashamed of.  My name is Michaella 
Kirien, and I'm one of the doctors on the Nimitz.  This is Devan Sash, 
the Captain."  Michaella said, making introductions.  "Captain Sash 
wanted to talk with you as soon as you were up to it. If you don't 
think you are, and I know how much things hurt right now, he can go 
away and come back later."  And Michaella shot the Captain a look that 
said he would if she said so. 

"I can. "  Michaella nodded. "I'll be in my office then, I'm going to 
maintain a light link with you, ok?  I will mostly be monitoring your 
energy levels, and your pain. Not what the two of you talk about."  And 
Michaella leaned closer to Kai. "I was and still am a Counsellor too, 
Kai.  I promise you can trust me."  And with that Michaella left.  Kai 
turned her antenna, and eventually her face to look the Captain over. 
He was tall and regal, and looked exhausted. 

"Alamo?"  She managed to choke out, already knowing the answer. 

Sash watched as Michaella went into her office.  He didn't speak until 
the door was closed.  He had been waiting a while to talk to Dumas, and 
knew that this was going to be the hardest part.  He knew she would feel 
responsible, and she would be partly right.  She had turned her back on 
her alleigances in order to do what was right.  And he owed her their 
life, most likely. 

"I'm sorry Lt., but Captain LaBeau gave us very little choice." 

Kai closed her eyes against the pain that the memory evoked.  The human 
was genuinely remorseful, she could taste that.  "Understand."  She 
gasped out, her throat muscles sore and bruised.  "Rick not say it was 
this hard."  She said referring to Richard Lee, the one who had 
recruited her. "Did best I could. Not good enough."  As she talked, her 
words became more coherant. "Antimatter?"  Hoping that it wasn't all in 
vain. 

"The shipment is safe," Sash asured her, so that all that happened was 
not in vain.  "In no small measure, thanks to you.  As for you young 
lady," Sash sat on the edge of the biobed, "you gave us quite a scare 
there." 

Sash turned away from her for a moment and then faced her.  "I want to 
apologize Lt. Dumas.  We got you as soon as we could, I only wish it 
could have been before all this."  He motioned to the sickbay.  "Do you 
require anything?" 

"No..  Doctor make things easier. She make the nightmares stop."  Kai 
noticed that the way the Captain acted was very paternal, very 
comforting. "Thank you, I did not want to die."  She finished looking 
down at her hands. "I am not a good Andorian, I am a coward, Captain. 
A rather large coward. I would not have done it if Rick did not promise 
that I would be safe.  What does that say about my morals?"  She looked 
up at the Captain. "Henri guided my career, told me I would make a good 
officer with time.  He requested me specifically for this assignment. 
He trusted me.  What does that say about the value of my friendship? I 
still find it hard to reconcile the Henri that was almost my father 
with the monster that we both knew he was." 

Sash looked into the Andrian's eyes.  He smiled as her antannae seemed 
to focus on him all by themselves.  "Lt," he began, then paused. 
"Cithy, don't ever doubt yourself.  What you did today was one of the 
bravest I've ever seen.  You went against all you knew, and trusted in 
your belief values.  You took a stand on high moral ground in spite of 
your personal feelings, knowing full well you were going against those 
you considered to be allies, or even friends.  i can't even begin to 
fathom the courage that took." 

He reached out and stroked the lock of white hair that had fallen across 
her face.  "Something happened to Captain LaBeau over the years.  He 
began to believe that the ends justified the means, any means that he 
saw fit.  I'd like to believe that we are above that.  That we hold a 
moral standard for others to live up to.  It might sound high and 
mighty, but it's what I believe.  And I think my crew does as well.  And 
I would be honored if you'd consider yourself one of them." 

She grinned for a moment. "Rick promised me I would still have a job 
aboard whatever ship rescued me, so I'd have to say you have orders on 
that, Mr. Sash.  DO you really want me ?  How can you be assured that 
my loyalties won't turn again at the first available opportunity?  How 
can you trust me?"  She shook her head, her antenna not moving. "I 
don't trust me."  Then she smiled slightly. "The name is not Si-thee - 
it's KI - thee - or as my friends call me Kai. If I still have any of 
those left."  And with that the threatened tears did fall. 

Sash nodded for a moment understanding her reservation.  "Kai?  I 
have not met nor talked to this Rick.  And if there is one thing 
you should know about me off the top, I tend to say what I mean to 
say, irregardless of how it makes me look.  I would not put out my 
hand to you in friendship, if I didn't mean it." 

Then he smiled at the look on her face.  "And yes, I have extended a 
hand in friendship.  Anyone who willingly puts their life on the line, 
to save others is not only worthy of freindship, but also of a certain 
amount of trust.  Even if you have trouble rusting yourself, I feel I 
can trust you.  And I'm a pretty good judge of character, if I do say so 
myself. Even if you have no other friend in the universe, know that I 
will be there for you." 

"That seems contrary to what I know of Starfleet Captains.  Very well, 
I will take you up on this offer of friendship."  And that seemed to 
settle her mind a bit.  "How did you know to find me if you did not 
talk with Rick?"  She asked, curiously. 

"I recieved and emergency cominique from Admiral LoDona telling me that 
we had an "ally" on board the Alamo, and I was to do whatever it took to 
retriieve you.  I just assumed that it was you who saved our bacon." 

Then she got very quiet. "The telepath, Kirien, seems sad, Captain. Did 
anyone die?"  She needed to know. 

Sash nodded silently.  "Unfortunately yes.  Her Imzadi, Lt. Commander 
Wilson, was killed in the initial attack.  She's been taking it hard.  I 
really haven't had a chance to talk with her or her children yet."  Sash 
could feel the repressed sadness wellup in him and pushed it back down 
again.  No time for that now.  The ships needs a strong captain. 

She looked startled. "Satan told you to rescue me?  The great evil one?" 
Then she flushed, for letting her mouth run on ahead of her. "Do you 
know the great evil one? The bringer of devestation?  That's what the 
media calls him, you know.  He who is going to bring about the downfall 
of the Federation. The great dictator.  Satan's lovechilde."  And with 
that one she did giggle. 

Sash smiled as well.  "I'm not sure that the Admiral has heard that one, 
but I am sure he knows that he's not well thought of on the counsel. 
I'm also sure that there are some on our side who might agree with the 
description.  But if there's one thing he's not is a dictator.  We all 
had the choice to return to the Federation regular.  We are here by our 
own choices, and nobody elses." 

He liked the sound of Dumas' laugh.  It was so free and child like.  Of 
course, to him, everyone often seemed that way.  In a way, it reminded 
him of his late wife.  He took hold of her hand and put his other hand 
on top. 

"I don't want to over stay my welcome, but I would like to have an 
opportunity to get to know you better.  Perhaps we can have dinner once 
you get out of here and settled in." 

Kai nodded, suddenly feeling sleepy again, as Michaella glided out of 
her office, to catch Cithy as she fell backwards in pain. "Easy girl" 
Michaella whispered, touching a sedative to the side of her neck. 
::Sleep, no nightmares...::  Michaella sent into her mind. ::Sleep and 
heal Kai. You are safe.:: 

As Kai's eyes fluttered shut, MIchaella turned to her friend and almost 
began to cry. "I don't know if you have time for me right now, but I 
need a friend to talk with and to cry on his shoulder." 

"For you." Sash smiled and put his arm around her, "I'll make the time." 

(reply none) 
(posted by Al Muir and Melinda Martin) 


Stardate:2406.10.06
(USS Nimitz- Sickbay- CO & ACMO- Captain Ssh and Dr Kirien-2020) 

He led her back to her office as he felt her body began to relax.  By 
the time they were at her desk he was practically carrying her.  Sash 
tried to lower her to her chair, but she clung on to him as if her life 
depended on it. 

They ended up on the small couch in her office, him holding her.   She 
was turned into his arms, just sobbing quietly.  Her entire body shook 
with the sobs and she gave in to the grief she'd been pushing off for 
so long. 

"We never broke the bond."  She managed to get out. "I feel so broken 
right now, like part of me is gone, and it is.  And I don't know what 
to do about it.   And I don't want to face the girls.  I can't take 
their grief as well as my own.  Not when I'm saw raw. I'm a bad 
mother."  She whispered the last bit. 

Sash held her silently, letting her get her feelings out.  He stroked 
her hair gently and and listened attentively.  But he couldn't let her 
denigrate herself like that. 

"Now, now," he admonished,"you are not a bad mother.  I understand your 
feelings.  I don't how I would have reacted if only my wife had died.  But 
give yourself time to grieve, and know that you still have people who care 
about you." 

He thought for a moment.  "I think what you need is the girls support 
around you.  A burden shared is a lighter load.  If you like, I can be 
there when you tell them." 

Michaella shook her head.  "I know Beth knows... but Ella..she probably 
doesn't.  What do I tell them ? How do you tell your daughters that their 
father, who they just rediscovered, is gone forever? At least with the split 
we were taking  they would still have him. Beth especially..she is so like 
John it's incredible."  And she looked up from Sash's arms. "And there is 
something else. I feel... a bond..to something that isn't here. I'm afraid 
for who I think the other end of the bond is."  She realized that she was 
rambling.  "There are just moments of extreme calm, almost vulcan.  And I 
think it's Saleke.  Have you heard from him ?" 

"Saleke?"  Now Sash's curiosity was piqued.  but he knew better than to ask 
about a private matter.  "Saleke is still on board the trawler. 
No, I haven't heard from him lately though.  Why would you be afraid for 
Saleke?" 

Michaella shook her head, sniffling.  "He's the only vulcan I know. And we 
had...  we did a mind meld a few days ago...after..."  She couldn't quite 
bring herself to say it.  "We did it in order to allow me to function 
properly for this mission.  Thee are reports of melds between betazoids and 
vulcans going badly...   and I'm worried that if I'm getting moments of his 
calm, that he must be getting moments of my 
emotions.  I don't know how a vulcan would be able to deal with the 
intensity of a Betazoid's emotions. Though,"  She said logically, her 
voice losing all of it's emotion and becoming cool and aloof, "I 
suppose that if he were having problems, we would have been contacted 
by now.  It is illogical to assume that he would be getting the 
backwash of my emotions."  Then she looked up at Sash with her eyes 
wide and afraid. "See what I mean?  It's almost like having another 
person in my head. And I don't mean that a good way, Devan!" 

Sash chuckled.  "I know what you mean.  I don't tink I'd appreciate 
having Saleke running through my mind either, no matter how much I like him. 
If it will make you feel better I'll contact the Archimedes and check in on 
him." 

"Please?"  MIchaella asked, looking up still somewhat sad. "It would 
make me feel better."  She snuggled against him, liking the feel of his hard 
muscular body, it was warm, and moreover, he smelled right.  She chuckled at 
the thoughts that she was having. Part of her was in 
remorse over the loss of her Imzadi, part of her missed the feel of a 
man, and part of her wanted to throw him down and straddle him. 

"It's always amazed me the response that people have to death. They 
tend to..what is the word that Ella uses as she giggles... shag after 
being faced with death. I feel sorry for those that do not have a 
friend to do so with."  She said, her face clouding with emotion. 

Sash wasn't exactly sure how to take that comment.  He too, was feeling 
comfortable with his arms around a woman.  There was something about 
Michaella that intrigued him.  Was she so like Nessa?  She was, and then she 
wasn't.  She was so much more serious.  Yet she had so many of the same 
doubts about herself.  It was as if she were never able to appreciate 
herself enough.  Must be a Betazoid trait. 

His arms enveloped her and he rubbed her arms.  "I've never quite heard it 
put that way," he said, "but I have seen the phenomonon.  Battle, and death, 
does indeed tend to bring out the need for ... intamacy."  He smelled her 
hair, that still had the faint trace of her perfume, and smiled at what he 
was picturing in his mind. 

Then the smile disappeared.  As tempting as it was, there was still 
work to be done, and he was the captain.  Others had to be taken care of 
before his own purile needs. 

"I think," he said, "after we get some power back to the ship, we should 
take the girls camping on the holodeck." 

"Who is Nessa?"  Michaella asked, with a smile. "You haven't mentioned 
her before.  I'm sorry, you were thinking of her so loudly, I couldn't 
help overhear.  I really try not to, I get the feeling you don't like 
it."  She said turning in his arms.  "As for camping on the holodeck, I 
don't think they have ever been camping.   I know that I haven't been."  And 
then Michaella grinned. "I doubt your needs are purile, Devan.  No more so 
than any other persons."  She laughed, her voice like a tinkling bell. 
"Part of me wonders why you are so nice to me. I don't think that I deserve 
it. And part of me wonders when it is going to stop.  Betazoids tend to be 
full of insecurities and self-doubt. I think we tend to live too much in our 
selves and not so much among others. Kind of strange for a race of 
telepaths, don't you think?" 

Sash smiled.  He saw where Michaela's daughters got their ability to 
run streams of thought together.  "I've always found Betazoids to be a 
most unusual race.  Nessa is Captain Vanyssa Winters or the USS 
Mystique.  I have known her for a very long time, even by my standards.  She 
was my FO when I first came on board the Nimitz.  Before she left for her 
command we ... took our relationship to the next level, if you know what I 
mean." 

He saw that she caught his drift as a broad grin grew on her face. 
"Anyway, it's difficult to seperate my thoughts sometimes.  I am 
uncomfortable having my thoughts under scrutiny.  Sometimes it's 
comforting knowing that someone else knows what I'm thinking.  But I 
like the privacy of my own mind.  I've had the wrong people in there 
before." 

A resonance of a chilling laugh played in the back of his mind.  He 
shook it off.  "As for camping, well, if you've never been, then you 
simply must. I'll take it easy on you." 

She shivered. "The contact makes it almost impossible for me to not 
sense things that are...loud."  She said, flushing.  "And there is 
something about you..the contact is as easy as it was with John."  She 
changed the subject gracefully. "Tell me about this camping thing, 
Captain.  It seems...strange to be out doors and in primitive 
surroundings, though I bet Ella would love it. She's more of a nature 
person than Beth. Beth would only be interested in it if it included a 
shuttlecraft."  And Michaella began to chuckle. 

Sash chuckled, glad to have the subject change.  "There is 
something...primitive about camping.  But it's more.  It shows how you'd be 
without all this technology we have around us.  It takes me back the basics 
of living, and surviving." 

He saw the look on Michaela's face and faught the laugh.  "Now I don't 
want you to have that extreme an experience, and it sounds strange to 
try living in a non-technolgical situation when you're using technology to 
provide it, but I think you might be surprised at how enjoyable it might be. 
And Beth might find another outlet for that inventive side in her.  Most of 
the shuttle pilots I know love camping." 

"But there's no rush.  Thnk it over and let me know.  We won't be having any 
holodeck time for a while," he added.  "At least, not until we've got all 
the esential systems back on line." 

He stood up, "Speaking of which, I really need to get back to the 
bridge." 

She went oof as her backrest went away.  She tried not to let the loss 
show on her face...but it was obvious. ~I guess I scared him away~  She 
thought to herself, feeling somewhat bad at the moment. 

Sash reached down with a hand and took a firm grip on Michaela's.  He 
helped her to her feet, and looked down at her disappointed face.  His eyes 
softened as he spoke.  ~Just like Nesssa.~ 

"I would like to do nothing more than to spend time talking with you 
right now.  But we both have jobs to do, and as much as I wish I didn't have 
to go, I do. "  He lifted her hands and  kissed them gently.  "Take care of 
our new crew member.   I think she's a keeper." 



Michaella nodded. "Only after you eat and sleep, though, Captain."  She saw 
the look on his face. "The Chief Medical Officer of the Starship Nimitz says 
that the Captain of the Nimitz needs to take at least a two hour nap and eat 
something with more than one food group of it.  And she's willing to make 
that an order, Captain."  Michaella said with a smile. "The Nimitz isn't 
going to blow up in the next couple of hours, and you need to rest. You've 
been running on adrenaline for too long now... after all..you aren't a young 
man anymore."  And then she winked. 

Sash smiled a huge smile, suddenly feeling his age, "Lady, you just said a 
mouthful." 

"Well, I have to be official, don't I?  When making orders to the 
CAPTAIN ?"  And she giggled and gave him a hug. "You'll do as I say, 
love?" 

"Seems I have no choice,"Sash replied.  "I'd hate to be put on medical 
leave.  God only knows when my ACMO would release me." 

He headed for the door. "I'll let you know about Saleke.  You let me know 
how it goes with the girls.  Remember, I'm there for you if you need me." 

He stepped out and the door closed.  With a smile Sash headed for his 
quarters.  He wasn't sure if he could sleep, but at least he could lay down 
for a couple of hours.  He rubbed the small of his back.  ~I'm getting to 
old for this.~ 

(reply none) 
(posted by Al Muir and Melinda Martin) 


Stardate:2406.10.06
(USS Nimitz- Captain's Quarters- CO - Captain Ssh -2055) 

Sash walked into his quarters and looked around.  He really hadn't spent 
much time there recently and it felt like a strange world.  He had never 
been very good about devorating, and most of the niceties in the living room 
had been provided by others. 

Nessa, of course, had left her mark in many aspects of his life.  He walked 
over to his desk and picked up the holo-pic that she had given him.  It was 
of the two of them on the Newman.  Such a long time ago.  He felt every bit 
of his 60 years. 

Sash sast down behind the desk and looked at her picture.  He could sure use 
someone to talk to right now.  As captain, he believed it was his job to 
lighten the load of those under him.  He had trouble sharing his burdens 
with them.  Sharing a burden was easy advice to give to Michaella.  He 
should really take it himself, but who could he turn to.  

The new counselor was a great adition to his crew, but it was obvious that 
he was troubled by this mission already.  The last thing he needed was to be 
worried about his CO's resolve.  It was great having Kestra back, but so 
soon after his... interlude with Nessa, he was not ready to walk that path 
yet.  He felt bad about keeping her at arms length, but things were 
different now.  She was his FO now.  What a bizarre twist of fate that was. 
He wanted to keep things somewhat proffesional, for now.  But he also knew 
that Kestra wouldn't let that last too long.  And now Michaella.  What was 
it about Betazoids that attracted them to him.  And even him to them.  

But right now his life just felt so empty.  He had no one to talk to.  He 
had no way to relieve himself of this guilt that was continually nagging at 
him.  He had crossed the line.  The destruction of the Alamo had made him a 
war criminal.  There was no turning back for him now.  He wished that it 
hadn't come to that.  If only LaBeau would have given them another option. 
And if LaBeau had been in a didfferent ship, would the result had been the 
same?  He wasn't so sure.  But he was pretty sure that the other captain 
would not be feeling this remorse. 

He supposed that was the difference that kept Sash on the path that he 
considered to be true.  At the end of the day, he could still live with 
himself, even through the guilt.  Guilt was a new sensation to him aswell. 
As someone born and bred to be a warrior, enhance, mentally aswell as 
physically, his interactions with Starfleet, especially Nessa, had taught 
him feelings of remorse for the loss of life. 

Sash shook himself.  This was stupid to sit int he dark perpetuating this 
feeling.  He was ordered to his quarters by Dr. Kirien, but he already knew 
he wasn't up to sleeping.  He needed to get something done.  Sash had 
promised to find out information about Saleke.  He smiled at the prospect of 
he and Michaela.  He tapped the console on his desk. 

"Sash to Archimedes, I need to talk to Lt. Saleke." 

(reply Saleke) 
(posted by Al Muir) 


Stardate:2406.10.06
(Archimedes - Deck 3 - Lt. Saleke (jg) - 2056)
 
Saleke was running a tricorder over the relays and internal components of the lateral array when his com badge beeped, he tapped it and heard.
 
[Communication from Nimitz Captain Sash to Lt. Saleke.]
 
"Relay."
 
=^= Sash to Archimedes, I need to talk to Lt. Saleke. =^=
 
"This is Lt. Saleke Captain. How may I be of service?"
 
(Reply: Captain Sash, any)
(Posted by Charles)
Stardate:2406.10.60
(USS Nimitz - Bridge - COUNS - Ensign John Harrison - 
1159) 

While he was reading through the diagnostics report on 
the OPS station, Harrison kept half an ear on Captain 
Sash 

"Oh, and Kestra," the CO had added after talking to 
Commander Troi over on the Trawler, "I'm glad to see 
that you're alright.  You and your crew did a great 
job.  Sash out." 

Harrison smiled. The battle was over and his 
commanding officer was doing what all wise leaders do 
shortly after a conflict; praising his troops. It made 
sense. After a battle like this, virtually everyone on 
both the Nimitz and Archimedes would be feeling awful, 
almost hollow, as the realisation of how many people 
had lost their lives, even among their enemies, sank 
in. Even the survivors, though glad to be alive, would 
feel dramatically changed. 

The captain seemed to take a moment to himself, 
presumably to reflect and compose himself. After a 
while, he got up and headed for the turbo lift.  

The Captain stopped by the counselor. 

"Mr Harrison," he said, "walk with me a while." 

"Certainly, sir," he replied, stepping away from the 
console and following Sash. 

The captain told Kateb to take over the bridge and 
stepped onto the turbo lift, with Harrison one step 
behind. 

(USS Nimitz - Turbo lift 1 - COUNS - Ensign John 
Harrison - 1206) 

"Main enigineering," the captain ordered the computer, 
before turning to the counselor. 

"Ensign," he began,  "I want you to start preparing 
for the backlash of this battle.  I know that it's 
hard on the crew to fight and destroy one of our own. 
I'd like you to set up a series of meetings with the 
crew and make sure that they are not over-burdened 
with guilt." 

"Of course, sir," Harrison replied. There really was 
nothing to say, and he had been thinking about it 
since the relief that the battle was over had wahsed 
over him, like a cool wave on a scorching beach. 

"Thank you,"  the Captain said, remaining silent until 
the turbo lift came to a halt and the door opened. 
Sash stepped half out and half in.  "By the way, i 
just want to say how impressed I was at your 
performance during this ordeal.  Good work Ensign." 

The door closed and Harrison smiled. Praising his crew 
was certainly an effective tactic for Sash - the 
counsellor started feeling a lot better. 

"Deck Eight," he called to the turbolift, "Counselling 
Department" 

As the turbolift soared upwards, he began compiling a 
list of those who would definitely need to see. There 
was no doubt in his mind that the first of them would 
have to be Dr. Kirien. 

(reply Sash i.y.w) 
(posted by James Batchelor) 


Stardate:246.10.06
(Shipping Trawler Archimedes - Bridge - Tom Slytherwald - 1220)

Tom overheard O'Neill and Saleke talk, but didn't listened it since he got himself tons of problems with
all those repairing on the ship. He certanly needed some help, but he knew that the crew is limited and
can't just jump for a simple task like this.
 
 "Mr. Slytherwald we appear to be out of danger at the moment, please carry out the Captain's orders 
immediately. If you have any problems with the Archimedes crew please report to me, I will be checking 
in with you every half hour."

"Aye sir. I will do that immediately." said Tom
 
(Reply Saleke, if wants)
 
(Posted by Edward)