EXETERNRPG: EXETERRPG: (3-1401) CTO/3O Lieutenant Sg Ravok & CSO Lieutenant Jg. Erin Cortez

[Mark Howard]

Lovely post guys.

On Mon, 15 Mar 2021, 10:34 Rob Davis via exeter-rpg, <
exeter-rpg at startrekfreedom.com> wrote:

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> Mission: Murder on the Exeter Express
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> Day:03
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> Stardate: 2445:12:03
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> (USS Exeter – Sickbay –CTO/3O Lieutenant SG. Ravok & CSO Lieutenant Jg
> Erin Cortez– 1401)
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> Sitting up on the biobed, Erin flexed her hands a little. The tingling she
> had felt in her extremities was lessening but she also knew that full
> recovery was not just the physical.
>
> The talk with Trip earlier in the day had given her food for thought and
> she knew that she had to face what had happened. So she sat, waiting for
> what, in her mind, was the inevitable conversation. The one she was not
> looking forward to.
>
> Ravok walked into the room and thanked the Nurse for escorting him in. He
> approached Erin with flowers in a vase and sat them on the table beside her
> bed.
>
> " I got these from the arboretum. Thought you would like them." He said
> and leaned over and kissed the top of her head.
>
> Closing her eyes as she felt the kiss on her head, she sighed heavily.
> "Thankyou. They're beautiful. "
>
> He sat down and clicked his commwatch.
>
> " Lieutenant Cortez,  I'm going to ask you what happened. You are being
> audio recorded. This is for my notes so I can present a detailed report to
> the Captain.
>
> Please speak freely about the events in the holodeck. The more coherent
> and detailed you are the better ."
>
> "Where do I start?" She whispered.
>
> " At the beginning." He responded
>
> "Before I do, I need to say something to you."
>
> " Go on" Ravok insisted.
>
> "I'm sorry." She said to him.
>
> " For what ? My loss?" He asked.
>
> She nodded, knowing that what she was about to say was the thing she had
> dreaded. Taking a breath, she talked about being beamed into the holodeck,
> the rhyme that had been playing and what Ire had experienced.
>
> "He… put the knife in her. Knowing it wasn't Greta but he still did it…
> then she turned to me."
>
> " What happened next ?"
>
> "She asked me the same thing. Truth or death."
>
> Ravok leaned forward and clasped his hands. " And?"
>
> "I shouted. I refused to choose. I said that she had no power over me…"
>
> ~ You can do this Erin.~ Ravok thought.
>
> "Then she…. She killed Nesha because of it and…" Erin felt her breath
> catch in her as she fought to keep her emotions down but she knew that
> tears were falling, "... it's my fault. I am so sorry…"
>
> Ravok lowered his head
>
> " When I pursued an enemy in battle and fired on them I had no idea if
> they were going to fire at me in retaliation or fire at another member of
> my squadron. Lives are lost by situations beyond our control Erin. Her
> death was and will always be on Maxine, not you."  He said as he reached
> out and grabbed her hand.
>
> " Is it really ?" Ravok heard a voice ask. He looked around and saw no one
> else in the room and shrugged it off.
>
> Feeling his hand on hers, she looked at him, "It… if I hadn’t done that,
> she might have been… Lathuel, I'm sorry." She closed her eyes and gripped
> his hand tighter, wanting almost to take comfort from him and knowing she
> had no right to do that.
>
> He shook her hand firmly.
>
> " You mean more to me than Nesha ever did. She was blood, but you're  so
> much more to me. You have a place in my heart that will always be yours.
> Don't beat yourself up over this. "
>
> Looking at him, she smiled softly, "Easier said than done." Pausing for a
> moment, she looked into his eyes, "Full disclosure, there is something that
> I should tell you."
>
> Ravok nodded and withdrew his hand from hers. " Go on"
>
> "When Ensign More refused to play the game and I knew it was my turn… I
> didn't fight it. I… saw it as punishment for what I had done."
>
> Ravok looked her square in the eyes.
>
> " I know that feeling. Feeling the need to self punish myself for things
> that weren't my fault. It's one hell of a feeling."
>
> "I saw her. Wherever I was, whether was my mind trying to make sense of
> things I don't know. "
>
> " What do you mean you saw her? " He asked with confusion
>
> "I know… it sounds crazy. She told me I had the choice on whether to come
> back. She said to say to you…. hwiiy A mnek
> l'ta'fvull'aelmnaejaerhoaommuy. Don't couvæ a'e. My romulan might be a
> little rusty…"
>
>
> Ravok thought for a second.
>
> " Rusty isn't the word I'd use." He laughed slightly.
>
> "You just described every word while using the word. In my way I would say
> Hwiiy htaodt'ia'rhoinnie nhrai au mnekha di'ranov. Raed'aeusnnta'jhiy iebhe
>
> couvæ shaoi rinam. You see di'ranov means father without needing to
> describe what a father is. Shaoi rinam is you Erin you are an equal to me
> but not Romulan and yet my sister  so shaoi rinam describes who you are to
> me, but I blame Nesha she always had a way of over complicating the
> language. Keira does the same thing. " He laughed.
>
> Smiling, Erin looked at him, "I told you it didn't make sense to me."
>
> " Do you know what it means ? " He asked.
>
> "No. I picked out the odd word but not the whole phrase."
>
> " It means , You will be a good father. Do not blame her. " Ravok answered
>
> "Oh…." She looked down. From somewhere in the back of her mind, from her
> counselling training she knew that this had probably been an attempt by her
> own mind to assuage guilt that she carried.
>
> " I don't need some message from deep within your consciousness to tell me
> to not blame you. Although the part about being a good father is
> heartwarming. I am trying." Ravok said with a warm smile.
>
> "That you are." She replied with a smile.
>
> " Erin, we Romulans feel emotions much deeper than you could ever imagine
> which is why our Vulcan ancestors resorted to suppressing emotions and
> embracing logic. So when I say that I love you. I mean it in a way that you
> will never be able to understand. "
>
> "I can understand to a degree. I just wish that I didn't have this in
> built guilt carrier thing in my head. I feel things. Deeply. You know that.
> I know this is going to take time to fully process. It's not going to be
> easy but… someone said to me that I can’t hide behind my trauma. I need to
> own it. I need to recognise it for what it is and not run. So this is me.
> Not running and trying to own what happened. "
>
> Ravok smirked. " You need to own it? I only need one guess to tell you who
> said that. Wouldn't happen to be a certain captain with incredible muscle
> tone would it? " He asked laughing a bit
>
> Smiling,  Erin nodded. "That seems to be a family trait. Not the muscle
> tone before you say it. The advice."
>
> Ravok chuckled " I was about to say Sienna wasn't a towering heap of
> muscles,  but trust me take any advice he gives you.
>
> He would give out words of wisdom to us on Mars. Trip is what we Romulans
> call a Elhs'hswiehv Ehsiu. Basically an old soul or well of knowledge."
>
> "He is. Jimmy's the same. He… " Blushing a little, she looked down,
> realised her hand was trembling a touch and put it on her knee.
>
> Ravok sat back in his chair.
>
> " You mean Gorgeous Jim?" Ravok asked laughing. "
>
> Erin shook her head, "I'll tell him you said that." Sighing softly, Erin
> smiled, "He's good. Good for me. Calls me out when I'm being an idiot. Kind
> of like now. Haven't had a chance to call him yet. But, knowing this fleet,
> he's going to already know what's happened. "
>
> " Tell him. Half the fighter wing called him that. " Ravok said and
> instantly felt a wave of sadness rush over him.
>
> " I mean they did." He said with a hushed tone. In his mind the sound of
> the ejection alarms on his fighter started going off. A harsh memory came
> to his mind.
>
> Erin watched him for a moment. She knew he carried things too. Things that
> would haunt them both for a long time.
>
> " Erin, we are done. I have to get going. I love you" Ravok said as he
> needed the recording on his commwatch, standing up he kissed her on the top
> of her head once more.
>
> "I understand. I should get some rest. I am hoping they let me out of here
> soon. Even if it is just to my own quarters. "
>
> " If you're up for it. You should come over one night for movie night.
> It's  Rayna's turn to pick but she'll most likely defer her choice to Keira
> letting her pick, but that always ends with Keira picking something Rayna
> would have picked to begin with. If we're lucky it will be the movie about
> the bajoran fish named Yoka who searches for his friends in a coral reef. "
> Ravok said with a smile.
>
> "That sounds good. I can bring the best popcorn that Rayna will have ever
> tasted."
>
> " I think she'll like that very much ."
>
> "Go, work. Love you my brother." She replied.
>
> Ravok nodded his head and walked out of the room.  His anxiety was through
> the roof as he walked away.
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> ( posted By Jackie and Rob )
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